I remember when I gave birth to Cory. He arrived in this world only 17 minutes after I was admitted to the hospital! I worried then that I wouldn't have enough love to give him after already having one child. Cory brought spunk and excitement to our lives, and seeing him interact and grow with us was wonderful! God was working on my heart then, just as He is now, showing me that indeed He is with me and will provide all I need to get through this moment.
The fact that Cory is heading to Oberlin Conservatory to study opera makes perfect sense. When he was a baby, he often screeched at the top of his lungs for seemingly no apparent reason. Now I feel like it was so he could develop his lungs to carry him right to this place in his life. :)
My emotions are flowing from panic to joy, and from sadness to nervousness. Did I do enough to prepare him? Have I shown him what is really important in life? Is he ready? Am I? I know it's selfish of me to want him to stay here, but part of me does!
It is when I get caught up in worry that I hear God's voice. "Be still, Tammy," He tells me. "I've got this!" Of course you do, Lord! It's not about me, it's about him. I know without a doubt that God loves my kids much more than I every could hope to. He will watch over them always, and provide for their needs as only He can.
Lord, thank You so much for encouraging me and reminding me that Cory is in Your hands. He is ready for this adventure, and I can trust You to go before him, and me, as we walk this journey together. You are faithful, Lord, and it is amazes me to know that my kids know You and love You. I am grateful for the assurance that all is well as long as I keep focused on You and Your promises. I look forward eagerly to hear about his fabulous first year in college.
Tomorrow I take my son to pursue his dreams, and that is a wonderful thing! He is becoming an incredible man, and I am truly blessed!
