College bound...

Well, here we are.  Tomorrow is the day.  It will hit me deeper, I'm sure, when I actually drive off campus after leaving my son.  I have known that this day would arrive since the moment I laid eyes on my amazing bundle of joy 18 years ago.  Outstretched arms, eyes tightly squeezed shut, wailing mouth calling out for help.

Then I held him, in my arms, close to my heart.  Quiet came.  We looked into each others eyes and the bond began...

I feel a flood of emotions.  Happiness because he made it and is going to college!  Blessed that we are able to send him to a school he feels good about attending.  Unsure about whether or not I prepared him enough for this moment.  Proud of his accomplishments thus far.  Selfish that I kind of don't want him to go.  Ready to let go because it is time...

Lord, thank  You.  From the depths of my heart, thank You.  I know that You love him even more than I do.  You created him and know the desires of his heart.  You have promised to guide him and love him and help him and for that, I am grateful.  You have plans for him, not to harm him, but to give him hope and a future.  Oh, the blessed peace that comes from knowing these things!

I take my oldest son to college tomorrow.  Those words make me feel so many things, but most of all, they make me feel so excited!  I look forward with anticipation to see my son find himself, grow in wisdom and knowledge, and become a man.