just happy

So I'm sitting here in complete denial that I have to go back to work tomorrow after a wonderful Christmas break.  I have spent quality time with family and friends and truly give thanks to God for a restful, refreshing respite.

I went into this break with several "to do" items that I wanted to get done.  Didn't do any of them. Guess what?  I am fine with that.  Might seem silly, but that is big for me.  I am a control freak and like to make lists of things to do and feel pure joy when I cross each item off the list!  I've decided that I need to learn to go with the flow more and not get consumed with trying to be perfect and all betty crockerish.

I am not one to make new year's resolutions.  Not that there is anything wrong with them, or with the people who choose to make them, but for me it stresses me out not to follow through with things I commit to doing.  I have just decided to focus on changing my thought process and seeing what happens!

For the first time ever, I did not buy a paper desk calendar to start the new year.  Who cares, right?  Well, I am a paper/pencil kind of chick that loves to write everything down, so it is a huge deal for me.  I am trying to embrace the technology world I live in.  It's hard.  I am convinced that I will make it work though!  Pray for me!

I want to whine less, and pray more.  I want to see the good in every situation, especially ones that challenge me intellectually.  I want to be bold and tell the world how much my Savior means to me. I want to meet the needs of those I care most about, and have them feel the genuine love and heartfelt joy I have for them.  I want to enjoy life, even the messy, hard, confusing parts of it.  I want to publish my book. I want to write more.  I want to just embrace what makes people different and unique and stop fighting against what doesn't make sense to me.  I want to learn new skills.  I want to make changes to things that shake me at my core and bother me because they are wrong.  I want to eat healthier and be more creative in the kitchen.  I want to make a positive difference in this world.  I want to be a Child Life Specialist.  And an OR Tech. And a youth minister.  And a trauma surgeon. And an author.  And a patient advocate.  And an encourager.  But most of all I want to be the best Christian wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend and woman I can be.

2014, I am ready for you.  I am a daughter of the King, and no matter what may come my way, my life is in His hands.  I am loved, blessed and equipped to handle anything.  :)